Resolutions and Absolutions

Do you make a list of things you want to change, give up, do better in the new year? I used too. Now I just hope for the best:) Of couse there are the usual, lose weight, quit smoking (Again!) reduce debt but what about our own spirituality? Do we add this to our list? Do we try more to live in the present instead of the past or spend any precious moments we're given worrying about the future? This is my goal for 2010 - forget about the usual and strive toward the unusual. Turn off the distracting television, I am sick of their version of reality anyway, and turn on peaceful music, painting on my Buddha board, living in the moment and treasuing life more. If I could you all any gift, it would be this. Be Zen, be peaceful, be loving, be kind and do not hate. Leave those things behind you and look forward. Breathe and stay grounded. Peace and love to you all.

Toward a New Year

Christmas takes so much time to prepare for. All the wrapping, the purchasing of that special somethings for the people you love, the baking the cleaning, and then within moments is over and you are left feeling a bit empty. The thrill of Christmas Eve has stayed with me since I was old enough to remember it. It's magical. Wouldn't it be wonderful if we could keep that magical, positive spirit active year round? The kindness of people on this one special night is something that would make our world a peaceful place. It was very hurtful to hear that another Canadian soldier died on Christmas Eve. With previous wars, you knew your enemy. He wore a different uniform and on this special night, a peace was garnered and adhered too. Now, the enemy is dressed like everyone else. He/she may be a child, a woman or a young man. The same face, the same eyes, the same hatred buried deep within from centuries of killing each other, and peace is not a word that cleanses their hearts. So sad that humanity has fallen so far. We should never have stepped into this war. It is not for us to tell a country how to live. This type of so called democracy has never worked before when invasion is part of the plan. It will never work no matter how many people die. When will man listen???

Back from the Land of the FLU

So much hype around this H1N1 flu bug that I put it down to a government conspiracy and let it go at that not thinking I too would succomb to its long reaching talons and become ill as well.
I am fortunate I had quite a few symptoms but did not require hospitalization. Still 2 weeks later the cough still assails me and I am continually grabbing cough syrup or cough candies to still the tickle and deep seated chest cold.
Oh the ghost is gone by the way! I didn't realize I kinda left it all hanging way back Sept 22nd. I have been so busy of late I have really neglected my wordsmith here :)
I had to smudge the house from top to bottom and had a couple interesting meditations until I realized the message this ghost was trying to give me. Okay maybe not a true message but one that told me that my journey, my road to enlightenment is not over. I have not come full circle yet. The Goddess Tara is with me. I need to find out more about her and her all seeing eyes in her palms. What does it mean that I saw this in my own palm during meditation? I have never experienced this before. I am weird! lol

A Ghost in the House

Yes, it is true. My house is being visited by an unknown ghost. I have no problem writing this as I feel like another door has been opened to me metaphysically speaking. Last night it gave me a vision in front of me of a notepad and pen. Okay so I am to write for you be your voice? It makes me think of Ruth Montgomery the author who in the 70's penned a few books. She was connected to her spirit guides who spoke to her whilst she was in a trance like state through her typewriter. Mine is not even close to her setup but I get the distinct feeling this ghost or entity needs to talk to me and the notebook may be our link.
Stayed tuned. I am about to embark on a whole new road it appears.

Survival of the Fittest and not so fit

I survived the writing weekend (again) but I know in my bones I'll not do this again. The writing suffers so much that in the end you sometimes have something extremely good or ultimately horrendous! Guess which one mine ended up being? Yes it was ballet jump off a high jagged cliff but I didn't give up. Even after two days of almost writing no words at all, day 3 I pulled off a marathon and managed to type up 61 pages. A far cry from my usual 90-100 pages.

So I have decided to write as writers write, something everyday be it, one page, 100 words or 3000 words I will plan and research and despite having 3 books and a fourth on the way published this will be "the book". Stay tuned to see if I procrastinate about ths idea as well :)

Writing

I am missing a heroine! I am stuck. OMG HELP! Lol

Book Writing Weekend

I am on the cusp of another marathon writing experiment, where I push my small intellectual brain to the max until I almost reach the tipping point and then pull back exhausted yet elated that I, once again, was able to pull it off. Okay breathe...sorry that was a very long first line wasn't it!
Now I have taken the time to do a wee bit of research and have a very sketchy outline. I hate it! So I am thinking of another book angle while I work today and ... yes I hate it too! So now what to do ...what to do?

Well if you are reading this, you know what I am going to say. I'll just do the same thing I do every time I write like this...wing it! Whatever comes to mind is what I'll write about. Goddess help me and those around me who once again will be tip-toeing around me like barefeet on broken glass as I'll be a monster in training until Sunday night when all is said and done. Monday is re-write day. Can I really do this again? I have no idea. Stay tuned....